Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Why do I want to commit Suicide?

Before judging me, please read my entire post.





I got hired to be an entertainment host aboard Disney Cruise Lines way back in June. They told me it could be a while before they started my paperwork. Then in September they told me they wanted me to start for them November 13, 2010. I was so excited. At last, a new job to start! I am almost 30 and bored with my current job I've been with for more then 4 years. Since Disney is known for being organized, and since I had already passed my Medical %26amp; Background checks, I decided to give my current job a notice in advance, for middle of October. That would give me a month off to stay settled, spend time with family. And I had enough savings for a month to live off of.





Around end of September, Disney called me again saying they could actually start me earlier! October 20th they had a spot open for me on the Disney Wonder. I was so excited! Now I could leave earlier. Because I am in a lease with my apartment, I sublet the apartment to my friend to stay in for the rest of October and through the 6 months I would be at sea.





2 weeks later, early October, Disney called me AGAIN to tell me to not worry about the October 20th date, and that they were pushing my date back to December 15, 2010! WTF?! I told the CEO of Recruitment on the phone "Look, uh, I already gave notice at my job and also sublet my apartment. Can't you just keep my date as is?" They wouldn't do a damn thing.





Furious, I threatened to sue them and yelled at the man telling him he was a jerk and bastard for lying to me. I received an email three days later telling me I was no longer in contention for a position as entertainment host. Wow. So because THEY lied to me and I blew off a little steam, I got fired before even starting. Now I have no job because my current employer wouldn't accept another notice- they said it was "too much paperwork". And my friend now resides in my apartment for 6 months. I have to move back to my family's and look for a stupid job I will hate because I went to school for theater and so I don't want a regular 9-5.





1) Why did this happen to me? If you were in my position, you'd understand. They KEPT changing the date on me! It's not my fault! I assumed they were telling the truth. Is this NORMAL for cruise lines to do with staff?





2) Why did they fire me after all that tossing around. Can I still sue them for lying to me about starting with them?





After this terrible incident, I feel I can no longer go on living. I was looking forward to this job for almost 7 months. I told all my family and friends about it, and they were so happy for me to have a great new gig overseas where I would get TONS of connections. And now I am totally helpless. 30 with a degree people make fun of me to have even though I managed a 3.5 GPA in my major and got terrific internships to put on my resume. I just want to end it. Please help me, and answer my question thoroughly!|||My friend, I understand more that you realize. You have a story very similar to mine, including the suicidal ideation. I lost everything too. I'm the same age as you. I got screwed hard they same way you did. I had a very good life and a career I loved, and I lost it all. I even lost the woman I loved more than life itself. I wanted to die too. Every day for months it was all I could think about. I'm only just recently starting to feel human again. You feel like you want to kill yourself because it's not fair, and you don't deserve it, and you feel like a failure now and you don't know how you're going to put things back together.





But you don't want to kill yourself. If you really did, you wouldn't have posted this. You just feel like it's too hard to go on. I know that feeling. But hang in there. I'm hanging in there. It will pass. Things will get better. Just trust yourself. You'll fix your life. I have faith in you.





E-mail me or Messenger me any time you feel like it. Both are open on my profile. Even if you just need to shoot the sh*t about nothing at all. Hear me buddy? Things will get better. We'll be ok. You have to believe that.|||You see a psychiatrist to figure that out, so you will not feel that way(so you can feel good about life)|||Don't do that. Disney is not worth killing yourself over. Try a different cruise line. Maybe you'll have better luck with them.|||Please don't.|||That's awful that Disney did that to you..but don't let it ruin your life. Your just going through a hard time right now..everyone deals with ups %26amp; downs..no one's life is perfect. Keep trying to find another job on a different cruise-line or something. In the meantime get a job doing anything just to pay the bills...its just the way life goes. It isn't fair but it's definitely not worth committing suicide over. Good luck!!|||You don't brother|||Please don't feel like that.





Your life is worth A LOT. Your life is worth than any job position and even more than any giant diamond. Don't let a few disappointments take you down. Sadly, we do need disappointments and rough times to make us grow stronger and make it through life.





With your GPA and the experiences you say you've had, I'm more than sure you'll find a good job soon. Just keep applying and never lose hope. Also, 30 is NOT an old age. You can still turn your life around and make of it whatever you want it to be -for good! but first you have to leave all negativeness behind and start again with a brand new attitude. It's not easy (believe me, I've been through a lot and I know first-hand) but you can definitely make yourself smile, get up, dust your shoulder off, learn from your mistakes, leave them behind and keep striving to become a better person.





Disney is an amazing company I grew up loving and I'm disappointed to know they did that to you. However, Disney is a huge conglomerate and you shouldn't judge the whole corporation on an recruiter's negligence.





I know it must be hard for you, but everything happens for a reason. Maybe working for the cruise line wasn't meant for you. Maybe you would not have enjoyed that job and maybe there is something better awaiting for you and that's why somehow either fate or a higher authority (God, if you're a believer) took away your current job from you. Doors close all the time, but as they close, windows open.





Also, I advice you to control your anger. I know you were treated inconsiderably but yelling was not going to change anything -except your new employer's opinion on you. But that's in the past now.





Another thing... don't sue. If you lose that lawsuit you'd be screwed. You'll probably be asked to pay for THEIR attorney fees and stuff. I bet Disney have epic lawyers. Also, realistically speaking, the fact that you gave them an attitude (yelling) will be used against you and your chances of winning that one seem to be very slim because you just don't yell at your bosses :)





Walt Disney said "You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you" and it's true. One day you'll look back and laugh. Had you been working for the cruise line or your current job and that would have prevented you from going further in life. I believe you can go far, very far in life.





Suicide is not the answer. Please think about your friends and family... and yourself. Please don't deprive yourself from the opportunity of being alive; remember that you can be whatever you want to be and that the strength, wisdom and maturity you'll get from your mistakes and disappointments are what will make you the great man you are meant to be.|||I am sorry for the shitty situation. There is no particular reason it happened to you, and it is NOT your fault. If I were in your shoes I would probably feel mortified.. maybe even hopeless. That is a lot of bull **** on your plate all at once, and your life will have been greatly impacted by it. Here's the thing I am trying to do to cope with such an immense amount of stress.


(Keep in mind that EVERYBODY experiences stress... we just all have different breaking points. It is so frustrating when your stress is directly related to an outside source and you have no control over it. But you have to accept that you have/had no control over it, and let go of it. Move on.)


I am trying to "Live in the moment". To accept what is happening in my life and not not allow what is happening to BE my life. Make small goals leading up to a larger goal so that your goal is attainable. Reconnect with yourself and decide what you really want to do. Meditate if you can.. I have a hard time getting to that point of clarity, but resting your mind helps wonders.





So try to take life one moment at a time..





Oh and they fired you because they are assholes. You can't make them NOT assholes, so forget em. You don't want to work for a bunch of assholes anyway. You deserve better than that.

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